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   I started my journey/study into the Love of God the week of 10-16-17, for publication on 10-20-17.  I know that God IS Love, but I haven't actually comprehended the magnitude of God BEING Love, as in, THAT'S WHAT HE IS! is mind-boggling to me!

   Patience is the first characteristic or nature of God. That characteristic to me was easy to define, I knew the meaning and I knew I needed to exercise having more patience in my life.

   The second characteristic is, Love is kind. Although I thought I knew the definition of ~kind~ Google says ~ a good benevolent nature~. So I looked up benevolent. ~the quality of being well-meaning; kindness.
synonyms; kindness, kind-heartedness, big-heartedness, goodness, goodwill, charity, altruistic, humanitarianism, compassion, and a few more.

   Well-meaning~ well intentions. "To me, that simply means to have good intentions in life (family, business) etc".
   Kind-Hearted~ Having a kind or sympathetic nature
   Big-Hearted~  (of a person or action), kind or generous
   Goodness~ The quality of being good, in particular
   Goodwill~ friendly, helpful, or cooperative feelings or attitude.
   Charity~ voluntarily giving to help
   Altruistic~ showing a disinterested and selfless concern for the well-being of others, unselfish.
   Humanitarianism~ the promotion of human welfare.
   Compassion~ sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or the misfortunes of others.

 
   Realizing that God is all of this and more leaves me in a state of awe, or, another way to put it is, wow! Coming out of a religious mindset, having grown up believing God is mean, this journey gives me a totally new sense of Hope!

   Since I started this journey, my life has been changing from the inside out. I have felt my heart softening, I have more peace, and a sense of calmness and security. I sense fulfillment as if a void is being filled. Even though I have asked Jesus into my life, I admit I haven't always been living the life He has for me because I haven't been walking in the Love of God.

   Sometimes life is tough which can cause our heart to get hard, like a defense mechanism that creates walls which in my case led to unforgiveness of myself and others, and bitterness.
   During the editing process of the book, I wrote titled, ~ So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts ~ I felt in my heart I needed to remove parts of my story and still yet, soften other parts. It was at that point, I knew God was not only softening my heart, but He had begun a healing process in me from the hurt, pain, and disappointments of the past.

   To me, the kindness of God is almost indescribable. Even though I have looked up the word "kind" I recognize that we can not put God in a box, which says to me that when we think we have figured Him out, He proves to be even greater than we thought!
   It's amazing, yet humbling to know that even in all of my mess-ups, He still Loves me. Nothing I do can make Him Love me more, and nothing I do can make Him Love me less. He never changes. Malachi 3:6 "For I am the Lord, I do not change" amp
   During most of my life, I have experienced conditional love. The requirement for being loved seemed to always be based on performance, it was a way of life, it's what I knew.
   Knowing God who is Love, Loves me regardless of my failures or faults is a truth that only He can reveal. Realizing that He Loves me enough that He searched for me when I was lost. Matthew 18:12.   ~I have no words that will do my thoughts justice~.

   It's humbling, bringing tears to my eyes to see that even in all the mistakes I've made and have at times been in rebellion, God, who is Love still chooses to use me to help others, even if  it's in a small way, such as smiling and saying thank you to someone who may not be pleasant to me, due to having a rough day.

   People are desperately searching to fill a void in their life that only God can fill. If I won't let my light, ~which is the Love of God~ shine through me, then where is their hope? Perhaps the light of God that lives in me, is the only light they will see. 
Perhaps that's why I'm on this earth, to shine that light?
~That a sobering thought!~ 

   The next character of Love is, Love is not jealous or envious, amp. 

   If you feel Him nudging you, please join me on this journey!


For those of you who are unaware, I wrote a book titled, ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~  Between the covers I wrote about the daily struggles I faced and how leaning on God gave me strength, recognizing Him as the only Hope I had while discovering His faithfulness in my life.

  I am running a special on ~ So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~. through the end of 2017, If you order directly through me you pay only $12.99, which includes shipping and handling. ~unfortunately, I am unable to offer this to those who live outside of the United States~. If you live outside of the United States and you would like to purchase my book, you can order a printed copy on my website through create space, or digital download, the links to both are on my website at, lifebehindtheposts.weebly.com

To Contact Me, my email address is, tammietrue16@gmail.com, your message may go to junk mail, to ensure it will not be deleted, next to subject please type in ~I read your blog~. 



To book me for speaking engagements please contact me at;

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Again, next to subject please type in,~ I read your blog~.

Thank you all SO much! I appreciate you, blessings!

Tammie

Welcome!


   Since my blog on 10-13-17, it has been on my heart to do a study on the definition of Love, Gods kind of Love, or the Love of God, whichever way you choose to define it.

   I am a curious person and in most cases very aware of my surroundings, I'm also very observant. I am a visual learner and have found many people are.
Seeking out the definition of a word to fully understand it's true meaning is important, at least for me that's the case. Therefore, My journey begins.

   The Amplified and Message translations of the Bible help break down the meaning of Love in a more simplistic way, therefore those are the translations I will be using for my research of the meaning of Gods Love. Those translations and Google.

   As I stated in my previous 10-13-17 blog I have been reading ~Love The Way To Victory~ by the late Kenneth E. Hagin. I am now on page 78. Again, I must say, his writing is simplistic. It would be hard for one not to understand Gods kind of Love. The hard part ~as I see it~ would be not responding in what would seem natural to us, or, ~to our flesh~.

   In 1Corinthians 13:4, the first characteristic of Love is patient. Therefore, I am going to take a more in-depth look into its meaning.
   The message translation reads, Love never gives up, the amplified reads, Love endures with patience and serenity. I Googled the meaning of patience, it's defined as,
~ able to accept or tolerate delays, problems, or suffering without becoming annoyed or anxious~. 
"be patient your time will come" 
Serenity is defined as; ~the state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled~

   
   I don't even want to imagine what life would be like if (God- who is Love) was as impatient with us as we are with others. I'm not talking about serious offenses, just the normal everyday things such as, the person in front of us in the checkout line who has what seems like 50 coupons and then pays with several pennies that need to be counted out.
    Although I have not been one to use coupons, I can relate to having to count every dime before entering the checkout, and in some cases, pennies may have been my source of payment.
   Or, perhaps the checkout has a new cashier, and he or she isn't as efficient to move the line quickly, what would our attitude be? Would we be patient, recognizing that we were once in that same situation, a rookie on our job? Or, impatient? I can type several scenarios but choose to leave that right where it's at.

   Interestingly enough, yesterday my friend and I were at a local Walmart making a purchase. The cashier helping us was really talkative, which was nice, however, our transaction was taking a little longer than appreciated by the person behind us. In a loud voice, she let everyone around her know she wasn't a happy camper. Seemingly everyone including my friend, myself, and the cashier turned our heads to look at her, startled at the statement and the volume of which it came. Thankfully, that's all that took place.

   How do we act while waiting for something? Do we display the character of patience? Are we displaying patience in everyday situations of life?
   Are we acting impatient as if our life is the only one that matters? Or perhaps we are impatient with God, feeling that since something isn't happening in our timing or the way we feel it should happen, God isn't going to keep His word?
   I know the thought has crossed my mind that I would show God a much faster and easier way of doing things. I have to remind myself that He knows the end from the beginning, He knows the obstacles that are in our way, and that everyone and every situation must be in alinement to complete His plan in our lives.
 
   If you have asked Jesus into your heart, do you trust God having the patience that what He promised He will do even though the wait may be longer than you want it to be or believe it should be?

   I have heard it said a few times, ~If I would have known what they were going through I would have been nicer to them~.
   For many years of my life, I bottled my emotions up for different reasons. One day someone close to me read me the riot act on the phone. Although I was guilty of the situation, there was way more to the story, and I busted into tears. The situation was real, but the delivery of the situation lacked patience. We don't know what a people could be going through, being patient can go a long way.

    Years ago I worked as an instructor at a beauty school. One of the rules was no cell phone use on the clinic floor (where students worked on clients). This rule was hard to enforce and required a level of patience.
   One day as I was walking up to one of the students sitting in a hydraulic chair, I noticed she was on her cell phone looking at pictures, as I was getting ready to enforce the rule I sensed there was more to the situation than simply her looking at pictures. I asked if she was ok, she replied then I patted her shoulder, gave advise, and walked away. Later she came to me thanking me for being sensitive to her situation and explained her reason for breaking the rule. There are times situations require a little extra patience, and leniency.

   Everyone has a story, no matter what walk of life they are from.
I can testify to the fact that life can make a person hard, someone can be the nicest person one day and years later, not so much! Hurt, pain, disappointment, and life's struggles can all play a part on the journey of life creating the place called impatience.

   It's in my heart is to recultivate the character of patience in my life. If patience isn't as much of a part of your character in life as you would like it to be, I invite you to join me!



   For those of you who are unaware, I wrote a book titled, ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~  Between the covers I wrote about the daily struggles I faced and how leaning on God gave me strength, recognizing Him as the only hope I had while discovering His faithfulness in my life.

  I am running a special on ~ So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~. through the end of 2017, If you order directly through me you pay only $12.99, which includes shipping and handling. ~unfortunately, I am unable to offer this to those who live outside of the United States~. If you live outside of the United States and you would like to purchase my book, you can order a printed copy on my website through create space, or digital download, the links to both are on my website at, lifebehindtheposts.weebly.com

To Contact Me, my email address is, tammietrue16@gmail.com, your message may go to junk mail, to ensure it will not be deleted, next to subject please type in ~I read your blog~. 



To book me for speaking engagements please contact me at;

sothankful.tcp@gmail.com
Again, next to subject please type in,~ I read your blog~.

Thank you all SO much! I appreciate you, blessings!

Tammie

Welcome!

   Since my blog on 10-4-17, I have been seeking God for answers in different areas of my life. Although He answered me, they were not the answers I thought they would be. They consisted of opening my heart up completely to Him and trusting Him with it, even if it meant facing the possibility of it being broken once again.

  I have started reading a book on love written by the late Kenneth E. Hagin, titled, ~ Love The Way To Victory~. (Second printing 1995). I am enjoying the read for a couple of reasons, one because although I have only read 27 pages out of 290, his writing is simplistic and down to earth with everyday examples.
   The other reason is that because it is so simplistic and down to earth, it's awakening new insights of the ~God kind of Love~, something this world desperately needs. It's something that those of us calling ourselves Christians should awaken to and live out. The God kind of love isn't the kind of love that loves today and hates tomorrow. It's the kind of love that say's even though you have done me wrong, I am still going to do right by you.
   It's patient, kind, thoughtful, not jealous or envious; it doesn't brag and is not arrogant. it's not rude; it's not self-seeking, it's not provoked [nor overly sensitive and easily angered] it does not take into account wrong endured. It does not rejoice at injustice but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things [regardless of what comes], believes all things [looking for the best in everyone] hopes all things [remaining steadfast during difficult times], endures all things [without weakening]. Love never fails... In other words, God never fails because God is Love.

   I will admit having gone through some challenging times whether self in-flicked or otherwise, some of the definition of living out Gods love through me, I'm like, "What? seriously!? for real God!? Your joking right!?.
   I have put a few situations before Him that (in my opinion) would exempt me from living out the God kind of love in its fullness. He informed me that those situations did not exempt me from living in the God kind of love. Although I don't understand it, and in some cases, I don't like it, I need to exercise the ~Love of God~ in my life so it will develop and grow.

   The other day during my morning commute I was talking to God, saying "Father, I trust you with my heart, Jesus, I trust you with my heart, Holy Spirit, I trust you" The words barely left my mouth when I sensed Jesus say to me, " I died for you". To me, It was as if Jesus was saying, why wouldn't you trust me? I died for you. That statement put a whole new light on the `~trusting God~ subject for me.

   The more I trust God with my heart and walk in the God kind of love, allowing Him to take care of me and whatever situation that comes my way, (God = Love) will not fail. Which means I will not fail.

   Confession time; I have allowed distractions in life to get in the way of writing and publishing my blogs. My heart is to help people in any way God chooses to use me. I look back and can see in the short time I have been publishing my audience has been great! reaching seven other countries, not including the United States.
In the book of Deuteronomy 28:8 it says God will command the blessing on what I undertake, I can see that is exactly what He's done. All of that being said, it is my goal to publish a blog every Friday. If you are reading this and have not subscribed please feel free to do so. Also, I would love to have feedback so feel free to comment.
I am in awe and humbled by the audience this blog has attracted. My pledge is to be consistent, because, in consistency lies the power.

   For those of you who are unaware, I wrote a book titled, ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~  Between the covers I wrote about the daily struggles I faced and how leaning on God gave me strength, recognizing Him as the only hope I had while discovering His faithfulness in my life.

  I am running a special on ~ So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~. through the end of 2017, If you order directly through me you pay only $12.99, which includes shipping and handling. ~unfortunately, I am unable to offer this to those who live outside of the United States~. If you live outside of the United States and you would like to purchase my book, you can order a printed copy through create space, or download, the links to both are on my website at, lifebehindtheposts.weebly.com

To Contact Me, my email address is, tammietrue16@gmail.com, your message may go to junk mail, to ensure it will not be deleted, next to subject please type in ~I read your blog~. 



To book me for speaking engagements please contact me at;

sothankful.tcp@gmail.com
Again, next to subject please type in,~ I read your blog~.

Thank you all SO much! I appreciate you, blessings.

Tammie

Welcome!

  Since my last blog on 9-10-17, life has been challenging to say the least, but, I choose to look at the challenges I faced in a good way, to find myself.

  Most of my life, from the age of seven on I have taken mental and emotional abuse, I carry the scares from the abuse. When people have given me their negative opinions of me or told me who they thought I was, I would at times take their opinions as reality, other  times their opinions would throw me for a loop, second guessing my own reality.

  After this mentally challenging situation I endured I had a discussion with God, my Bishop, and two of my dear friends.
   I asked God, "The things that are being said about me, how do I know I am really not that way?" His answer to me, "check yourself everyday, make sure your heart is right with me."

   I talked with my Bishop, he said "Tammie you need to get thick skin". I thought I had thick skin, I thought thick skin was being able to take abuse and still stand, not so. My Bishop and first lady explained to me thick skin is knowing who you are so when people talk about you, you can let it bounce off of you, or fall off of you like water on a ducks back.

   To me that statement took me back to what God told me, which takes me to knowing who "I am". Not according to man, but God! If He's good with me, I am good with me. Let people say what they will.

   I talked to my best friend about what happened and how I was defending myself to some people, she said, "Tammie stop defending yourself, you did nothing wrong, defending yourself makes it look like your guilty and your not". That takes me to the saying "live your life so no one will believe it".

  So, the mental beating that I took although it was tough and sent me for a loop for a week or so, in reality I'm glad it happened. It put me on the road to not second guessing myself because of someones opinion. Will people always see me in a positive light, no, and that's alright. Everyone sees things differently, does it mean I am not a good person? No, it simply means they have their own opinion.

   I am finding my circle is getting smaller and smaller. Those I thought I could share my heart with and trust, I cannot. I am finding some, if not most things are better left unsaid.

 

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Blessings!

Tammie