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   Since my last publishing on 3-23-18, I have been listening to the direction of God as I am preparing for my meeting with the director of education next month. Through Facebook, I also found a person from my past, when I was a young teenager.

   Last week during our weekly staff meeting we were discussing an important document that needed to be filled out for the meeting. I thought I knew the information that needed to be on it, however, I was mistaken. Thankfully, after an hour of debate one of the staff was able to get a word in and pointed out the step by step to filling the document out. Feeling slightly overwhelmed, I suggested a meeting the next day to finish the document.
   After leaving the meeting while driving home I had time to take a few deep breaths and ponder the information I received while listening to the guidance of Holy Spirit. After a period of time, I text the staff member letting him know I felt confident I could fill the form out without another meeting, then proceeded to do so. As I was typing up the form the questions and answers were coming to me freely, it was all a matter of remembering what I wrote in the curriculum.
   I have found through writing that Holy Spirit gives me the words to write, enlightening me along the way.
   I know beyond a shadow of a doubt my meeting next month is God ordained and He is guiding us through the preparation process. I have the BEST team of staff!

   As I mentioned in my opening, I found a person from my past. Although it was really nice finding her again, through our conversation it confirmed something I sensed even as a young teenager. After messaging back and forth talking about the past, our families, and catching up a tiny bit we agreed her story will go in the book titled -Behind closed doors-.

   I am sadly aware that since the fall of Adam in the garden where he gave up his authority to Satan that abuse of every kind as evil as it is has been apart of society. I personally believe abuse is more prevalent now than ever, perhaps because Satan knows his time is short, perhaps because society has become used to turning a naked eye, not wanting to get involved. Whatever the reason it's past time to take action. That's what the book -Behind closed doors- will help do.

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For those of you who are new to my publishings, I wrote and self-published a book titled, ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~  Between the covers I wrote about the daily struggles I faced and how leaning on God gave me strength, recognizing Him as the only Hope I had while discovering His faithfulness in my life.

  To purchase a copy of ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~, you can contact me directly through my email listed below. The purchase price for a paperback copy is $12.99 plus $2.65 shipping and handling. For a digital download please see my website also listed below. If you live outside the United States please go to my website for links to Amazon for digital down or Create Space for a print copy. My website address is;
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Thank you all so much, I appreciate you all.
Blessed beyond measure! 

Tammie

Welcome!

Since my last publishing on 3-16-18, I was pondering what I wrote in that blog and would like to piggyback off of it, going further into the reasons why I hold the belief in God that I have.

   According to the stats on my blog page, although many are reading my publishings, not everyone reads the same publishing, some go back in the archives. Therefore, I am going to reiterate a few previous publishings.

   I was raised in the hellfire and brimstone doctrine, therefore, I was afraid of God the father. I was told if Jesus came back and I was in the movies I would go to hell, or if I wore makeup or got my ears pierced I was sinning and to me, that meant I was going to hell. Everything was legalistic, bondage plain and simple. In my late teens and early twenties, the stuff I was being taught just didn't make sense to me anymore. Two and two were not adding up to four, what I was taught didn't jive with a God that was supposed to be love.
   I was raised in manipulation, therefore, to me it was normal. Not to manipulate, but to be manipulated. Although I did not recognize it as such.
   Gods word states in Ephesians 6:12 that "our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and against powers, and the rulers of the darkness of this world, and against spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Modern English Version
   I believe this to mean that the manipulation I was raised with was a spirit. Perhaps another time I will share how I am convinced this is true, from personal experience.

   Those things in my life along with what was normal to me put me on a path of being abused, it was sadly normal to me. It started in my early teens and led to adulthood. What I thought were love and protection was manipulation, control, and abuse.

   Fast forward several years, although I went through a situation in life that in reality was my worst nightmare, even that didn't prepare me for yet another situation that would shake my world to the core. It was through that 7.0 earthquake of life that I found the God that is Love and is indeed my joy,  peace, and strength.

   I have found His word to be truth, not reality, but truth! I can trust Him! He has never lied to me, He's held me together all of my life, keeping me sane! When you go through a life of mental and or emotional abuse, that abuse plays a mind game on your mind, it doesn't mean you are crazy, in fact, it's the abuser that has the problem. Sexual abuse, in my opinion, is also mental abuse. The questions that go through the mind of the one being abuse can be tormenting, or the words the abuser speaks in the ear of the one(s) they are abusing are mentally abusive. In any case, I believe it still goes back to Ephesians 6:12. In my case, I started always second guessing myself in almost every way because seemly everything I did was wrong, I could do no right and if I did it was because  I did exactly as I was told. At times, even that wasn't good enough.

   Going back to the 7.0, during this LONG season of my life, I would read Gods WORD for myself learning to hear the sound of His voice. All of my life I heard Gods word being quoted, (that I am grateful for) because I had it in my memory, but I needed to get it in my heart so the enemy of my soul could not make me believe Gods word wasn't true. To me it isn't just His word, it is HIS WORD! He told me He would do it, therefore HE WILL DO IT! HE SAID IT AND HIS WORD IS GOOD!
  From what I understand, having not seen the movie, it's kind of like the godfather if he said he would take care of someone and protect them that's what he'll do and anyone that comes against that person or person's will have to go through him. (I have your back, don't worry)

  I would read His word and let it penetrate into my heart/spirit. His word says He cannot lie so I held Him to it concerning my situation, shutting everyone's voice out, even my husbands. My Heavenly Father took a seemingly impossible situation and turned it around. Did it take years? yes. But through this season of my life, in the 7.0 earthquake, my Heavenly Father taught me to trust Him, and that He loves me and won't let me down. No other power can do what He did. I have come to know Him as a God of love, peace joy and strength. And, a God of His WORD. When I say His WORD, I'm talking about truth, integrity, and honor.

  Holy Spirit is my teacher, He taught me what I had experienced most of my life was abuse. Usually,  people that are being abused either don't recognize their situation as abuse, don't know how to get out or feel as if they deserve what is happening to them because they are told it's all their fault. Everything seems to be their fault. They are told that so many times they start to believe it themselves and that they don't deserve better.

   Jeremiah 29:11 reads "For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, plans for peace and not evil, to give you a future and a hope.

   Too many people are living under Gods intended plan for them. I heard Jeremiah 29:11 for the first time about 2-3 years ago, my thought was, "that scripture is for everyone but me". Even though my Heavenly Father showed me in SO many ways that He loves me because I was looking at the situation in my life instead of looking to God for my joy and strength I felt stuck, lacking hope. God once again reached into my situation and gave me peace, assuring me that that scripture was for me also.

   Speaking for me personally, the stuff I have been through although it may not be as bad as what others have gone through had it not been for the grace and love of God I would not have made it through in my right mind. I'm so thankful my gut/heart, (Holy Spirit) kept assuring me what was being said to me wasn't normal. The belittling, put-downs, etc.. wasn't normal. With Gods help, through His love, His word and the gentle guidance of Holy Spirit, I went from believing that I wasn't good enough in almost every way to now realizing when He created me he created a masterpiece, then broke the mold.
   We all have our own special gifts and callings that no one can clone. Why be jealous? Focus on the gift/talent God has given you, it will make room for you. You are one of a kind. Just as you don't have the same talent as someone else, no one has the talent you. Pursue your passion, you have it for a reason.

   There are many teachings about the key to this or that and I'm not putting down any of them, in fact, Holy Spirit has given me bits and pieces from several teachings to help me along my journey.
I know the following four keys have helped me on my journey, surrendering to God, (which sounds like a dirty word to many, even the church/Christians), forgiveness (some feel by forgiving it means what the person did was ok, but in reality, it frees the person that forgives) walking in love, (not natural love but supernatural love that comes from God) and, obedience (another dirty word to some, however, God knows the end from the beginning and listening to his guidence can save us a world of hurt and I have found it opens doors).

  Those are four keys although not popular to many are the keys that have helped me go from where I used to be, to where I am today. Do I have a way to go? Yes, but aren't we all on a journey? has anyone arrived? A pastor whose ministry I used to be under and who I highly respect has said on many occasions, "we are all in various stages of repair", I find that statement to be SO TRUE!

   In closing I would like to say, I know what I have been through and looking back I can say without a shadow of a doubt it was the hand of God in my life that has brought me through. By His grace He has made me stronger and bolder by far then I could have imagined I would be. People that know me well knowing only a portion of what I have endured but seen the timidity in my life tell me that I am not the same person. I have identified the spirit that has tried to destroy my life. Again, I go back to Ephesians 6:12.
I have surrendered my life to God allowing Him to take the reigns and use the brokenness of my life for His glory! Every tear I've cried will water the garden of healing for others. In Jesus name, Amen!

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For those of you who are new to my publishings, I wrote and self-published a book titled, ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~  Between the covers I wrote about the daily struggles I faced and how leaning on God gave me strength, recognizing Him as the only Hope I had while discovering His faithfulness in my life.

  To purchase a copy of ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~, you can contact me directly through my email listed below. The purchase price for a paperback copy is $12.99 plus $2.65 shipping and handling. For a digital download please see my website also listed below. If you live outside the United States please go to my website for links to Amazon for digital down or Create Space for a print copy. My website address is;
lifebehindtheposts.weebly.com 

To Contact Me, my email address is,sothankful.tcp@gmail.com your message may go to junk mail, to ensure it will not be deleted, next to subject please type in ~I read your blog, or, Beauty Within~, something letting me know to open it. Thanks

To book me for speaking engagements please contact me at;
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Thank you all so much, I appreciate you all.
Blessed beyond measure! 

Tammie 

Welcome!


Since my last publishing on 3-10-18, I have been listening to the direction of God as I am preparing to go before the director of education next month.

   To some, what I just said may sound silly "listening to the direction of God", but it's true. We are a spirit being, we have a soul (our minds) we live in a body, our body houses our five senses. But we listen to God with our heart or our gut "gut feeling". I have always regretted not going by my gut and I have known several people that have told me the same thing.

   Our spirits live forever "in eternity" after they leave our bodies. The question that only we as individuals can answer is, where will that eternity be? When my father-in-law passed away my husband made a statement to me, he said "there has to be a heaven, or where would my dad go? His dad did go to heaven, I asked Him if he was ready to go to heaven to meet Jesus a day or so before he passed, although he couldn't talk he assured me with his eyes that he was ready. Our heavenly Father is so full of mercy and grace, He would that everyone would choose life. I believe we will be surprised as to those who make it to heaven and those who won't. God knows the heart!

   When I was a child I was taught about heaven and hell, I knew heaven or hell were forever,  "eternity". In my mind, I would picture myself being in this place going in circles, over and over and over again, like being caught in a whirlwind without the wind. It was dark and I was all alone. I would picture never being able to get out, just staying in that dark place always.

   If I am going to be someplace forever when I leave this earth I want it to be a happy, joyful, and peaceful place. A place where there is no hate, no racism, no prejudice, nobody judging anyone, everyone getting along and loving each other! A place where the colors are beautiful and music exquisite. In that place, we will know no sorrow. In that place, our loved ones that have gone before us will be waiting to meet us with open arms. Our bodies will be young, beautiful, healthy and better than we could imagine. That place is Heaven! I KNOW heaven is real! No one can tell me different. And those who believe it isn't real, God word say's at the name of Jesus every knee shall bow. Everyone will go before God when they leave this earth. As I've stated before God has proven His word to be true, He has proven Himself faithful to me in Huge situations in my life. Therefore I do believe His word. I know that there are several debated that can take place on this subject, however, I also know WHO is real to me! My Heavenly Father, Jesus, and Holy Spirit.

   I know the peace I have and the strength I have been given, even in the midst of hellacious situations in my life. I know what I have come through, I also know my help, strength, and peace come from God. There were times I have felt all alone because of situations in my life even when I had people all around me. I look back on those time and can say with certainty that it was Gods strength that got me through.
   God talks to me and he will talk to you too! The question is, are you willing to get close enough to Him to hear Him, and listen to what He has to say? He loves us more than we can imagine and is waiting for us to simply receive His love through His son Jesus.

If you would like to Subscribe to my blog and you will automatically receive an email of my blogs as I publish them weekly.

For those of you who are new to my publishings, I wrote and self-published a book titled, ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~  Between the covers I wrote about the daily struggles I faced and how leaning on God gave me strength, recognizing Him as the only Hope I had while discovering His faithfulness in my life.

  To purchase a copy of ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~, you can contact me directly through my email listed below. The purchase price for a paperback copy is $12.99 plus $2.65 shipping and handling. For a digital download please see my website also listed below. If you live outside the United States please go to my website for links to Amazon for digital down or Create Space for a print copy. My website address is;
lifebehindtheposts.weebly.com 

To Contact Me, my email address is,sothankful.tcp@gmail.com your message may go to junk mail, to ensure it will not be deleted, next to subject please type in ~I read your blog, or, Beauty Within~, something letting me know to open it. Thanks

To book me for speaking engagements please contact me at;
sothankful.tcp@gmail.com
Again, next to subject please type in,~ I read your blog~.


Thank you all so much, I appreciate you all.
Blessed beyond measure! 

Tammie

Welcome!

   Since my last publishing on 3-2-18, I have been leaning into the heart of God. Spending my mornings in prayer, in His word, and simply listening to His direction throughout the day. This is a daily food for my spirit that I simply can't do without. As our body's need food and water to survive, our spirits need the word of God. I know if I don't have it my day is off.

   As I mentioned in a previous publishing opening my beauty school and daycare is too big for me without God! I can't do it on my own. Yes, He is bringing people into my life to help me on this journey but without Him, it won't even be possible! But With God ALL things are possible!
Matthew 19:25

   I feel as if I am at a loss for words for this publishing.
I am an organized person and I know I need to be organized for the meeting next month with the director of education. I know how to teach a class, I know what has worked for me in the past and what hasn't. I know that every class isn't the same and people learn in different ways. Even though the curriculum I wrote is really thorough, everything connected to it has to be just as thorough. That is one of the main things I will be working on in the next four-week. Last night I went back to my email the Board of Ed sent me to define some of the information connected with the curriculum I wrote. In the next four weeks, my focus will be on preparing for that meeting and listening to the direction of the Holy Spirit. He has never led me astray.
 
   I am not going to be anxious or stress about it, I am simply going to listen to the direction of the Holy Spirit and do as He says. If I feel myself getting overwhelmed I will sit back and cast my cares on Him. 1 Peter 5:7, that's what I did last night. I have a note in my bible that says, casting my cares takes it from my jurisdiction to His. To me that means me not worrying about it, it takes the responsibility of the situation out of my hands placing it in His. I will do my part and be prepared, God will do His part. He opened the door giving me the opportunity to go before the director of education, He will see me through.

  If you would like to Subscribe to my blog and you will automatically receive an email of my blogs as I publish them weekly.

For those of you who are new to my publishings, I wrote and self-published a book titled, ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~  Between the covers I wrote about the daily struggles I faced and how leaning on God gave me strength, recognizing Him as the only Hope I had while discovering His faithfulness in my life.

  To purchase a copy of ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~, you can contact me directly through my email listed below. The purchase price for a paperback copy is $12.99 plus $2.65 shipping and handling. For a digital download please see my website also listed below. If you live outside the United States please go to my website for links to Amazon for digital down or Create Space for a print copy. My website address is;
lifebehindtheposts.weebly.com 

To Contact Me, my email address is,sothankful.tcp@gmail.com your message may go to junk mail, to ensure it will not be deleted, next to subject please type in ~I read your blog, or, Beauty Within~, something letting me know to open it. Thanks

To book me for speaking engagements please contact me at;
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Thank you all so much, I appreciate you all.
Blessed beyond measure! 

Tammie

Welcome!


Since my last publishing on 2-23-18, I have been in awe of the goodness of God!

Opening any business is a process and can be challenging. One of the challenges in opening a beauty school is having the curriculum and everything associated with it, the school policy and business plan approved by the Board of Education.

   Tuesday, February 27th, as I was speaking to an employee at the Board of Education about getting credit hours for writing the curriculum and other things we are working on towards opening the school, she went from informing me it was a process, to looking me up and stating "you are ready for a meeting with the director of education". This is HUGE!
   I spent 6 hours last night going back through all my school policies, making a few changes and reformatting a little. I have about 5 weeks to make sure everything is consistent and ready for approval. Her whole attitude changed within about fifteen seconds. Only God! To God be the glory!

   I also had the pleasure of meeting the owners of a daycare close to my building that will house my school and daycare. They were extremely helpful in many ways. Answered a few important questions and asked to pray for myself and the manager of my daycare, and doing so before we left.

   I have purchased, ran, and managed a salon before, that wasn't a difficult process. I have been the lead instructor at a beauty school. Because of the amazing staff and everyone working so well together having each other's backs, it made my job easy. Opening a beauty school with a daycare is not like anything I have ever done before. I was talking to God about it, it's WAY bigger than I am. He gave me the peace that just as He showed me step by step how to write and self-publish my book -So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts-, He will guide and bring the people into my life to help open my school and daycare. 

   Now to the book -Behind closed doors-, It is a process but everyone is doing their best to get me their stories, I still need to write a bit myself to add to it. It won't be published in April like I originally wanted, Lord willing it will still be this year.

If you would like to Subscribe to my blog and you will automatically receive an email of my blogs as I publish them weekly.

For those of you who are new to my publishings, I wrote and self-published a book titled, ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~  Between the covers I wrote about the daily struggles I faced and how leaning on God gave me strength, recognizing Him as the only Hope I had while discovering His faithfulness in my life.

  To purchase a copy of ~So Thankful! Life Behind The Posts~, you can contact me directly through my email listed below. The purchase price for a paperback copy is $12.99 plus $2.65 shipping and handling. For a digital download please see my website also listed below. If you live outside the United States please go to my website for links to Amazon for digital down or Create Space for a print copy. My website address is;
lifebehindtheposts.weebly.com 

To Contact Me, my email address is,sothankful.tcp@gmail.com your message may go to junk mail, to ensure it will not be deleted, next to subject please type in ~I read your blog, or, Beauty Within~, something letting me know to open it. Thanks

To book me for speaking engagements please contact me at;
sothankful.tcp@gmail.com
Again, next to subject please type in,~ I read your blog~.


Thank you all so much, I appreciate you all.
Blessed beyond measure! 

Tammie